Happy Tuesday all. Today I am going to talk about something that I know many of you believe, and others say is crazy. Those things that make us feel close to someone not on this earth any longer! I truly believe we are shown, hear, smell, see things that are meant to be. Things that help us!!!!!!
Some say coincidence, freak thing, chance, serendipity, fate........you get it. That is OK. Not everyone has to believe - but if it makes you feel better, then it was meant to be.
Frances mentioned the other day about she has felt especially close to her grandma lately. Then she heard the song "Ave Maria" and she knew it was grandma letting her know she is close by.
Those good days - like Amelia mentioned yesterday with her mom. It is just a gift!!!!! A special gift.
Several have received better than expected health news for their loves.
I think there are many, many gifts we get that cost ZERO and mean the world.
Saturday, I went out to shop for the littles. I wasn't much in the mood (was having one of those days). I went, in Ollies, I came across this older couple (won't say elderly - I am elderly!). He was teasing her across a couple aisles - joking and giving her a 'hard' time! That so reminded me of how Glen was - such a jokester! She came up laughing and smiling. The guy looked over at me and winked (he acknowledged me), and they went off together holding hands and laughing. I had to walk off, as I was tearing up - it just reminded me of us.
Then on the way home (after I was better), a song came on the radio, and I lost it. The song "Hungry Eyes" (Eric Carmen) - think Dirty Dancing! It wasn't the song perse' - but the meaning behind the song that hit me. We used to look at each other with those crazy young love eyes and had those feelings and that passion. It took me back to our first 'date' when Glen ASKED if he could kiss me.
Needless to say, I was a mess! BUT I felt so close to him the rest of the day. It was like he was with me - and I knew I was supposed to go where I went that day.
Just a little sign.
I have had dreams of G, but I have only seen his actual face in two of them. Both were very serious dreams with important conversations (him telling me why he left - seriously). I begged in both, and I cried in both asking him not to leave. He told me I would be fine, that he always knew I could do this. That he had things he had to do. I woke up sobbing (for real) and my pillowcase was wet. I somehow feel these were 'real' and he 'was' there - that God let him speak to me. (this happened w/in the first year or so).
Somehow, as sad as it was, it helped me. I knew he had faith in me - if he did, then I should.
Sometimes - do you ever smell something that takes you back in time?
For G it was popcorn popping - it reminded him of his grandma when he smelt it.
Me - laundry off the line - I always think of mom.
Me - the bite of that first tomato - daddy (we always shared that together when I was a kid)!
Hear something? I have one particular song that reminds me of my sis that is gone.
Words? Silly as it is - schnitz - takes me back to a weekend with my sister and brother-in-law, when G and I went to an Amish festival with them. Sis just thought that word was hilarious and laughed every time she heard it!!!!!
For months I have had no animals in the house - yet many nights, I feel an animal jump up on the bed! Sometimes I feel it cuddle next to me.
Call me crazy - I don't care. Maybe I am - I don't care.
I get comfort from these things. They are gifts to me.
MANY of you know!!!!!!!
You can call it anything you want - crazy, silly, coincidence, God, family, etc..........
Those are special moments, and they bring us back to a spot in time and we feel close to someone. That is all that is important!
SO know - you are not alone!
I have been enjoying the stories of joy and happiness.