Thursday, April 25, 2019

The Worst of Times

I have been missing this week, but it has been a tremendously horrible week.
Sadly, I must say that my sweet teddy bear of a husband, Glen, very suddenly and unexpectedly passed away on Tuesday.
We had a great start to our morning and had made plans to go outside and do a couple projects - and then our world turned upside down.

He went 10-15 minutes without a heartbeat or respiration.  His heart was revived, but he was on a ventilator.  Too much damage had been done to his brain with basically the most grim outcome.  We had discussed ours wishes many times over the years - so I knew what I had to do.  It was the hardest decision ever in my life, yet an easy one.  I knew he was already in the Lord's hands and I knew he would never want to just have his body exist.


My life just changed forever in a moment.  I am so numb, sad, angry, overwhelmed and just broken hearted.  Yesterday was the first day in 33 1/2 years that I did not get to see him.
I have made arrangements and will follow his wishes on that as well.  I can't wrap my head around all there is to do.

I will be back here as soon as I can.  Please keep checking in.

HUG your loved ones and tell them you love them.  A split second can change everything.
Please talk to your loved ones about their wishes as well.

I love you all.  I am so glad to have so much support.
God bless.


*Please forgive me if I do not respond to each comment - I will be reading.
 

88 comments:

  1. Cheryl,

    There are no words to help at this time, but know that you and your family are surrounded by people who care. My heart goes out to you and your family. May God be with you at this time Belinda

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  2. Oh Cheryl, I am so very sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
    I love the picture of the two of you. May your memories be a blessing.
    Sending hugs and prayers.

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  3. So sorry to hear of your loss. May you cherish the many years of happiness together and keep the happy memories alive. Take care of yourself.

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  4. Oh Cheryl, I am so very sorry. My heart aches for you and you are in my prayers. I love the photo of the two of you.

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  5. I am so sorry. We never know how long we have with our loved ones. It gives a bit of comfort knowing he is with the Lord. Hold your love and memories of him and your life together in your heart. But it is okay to be sad, angry, overwhelmed and broken hearted. I am so glad you had him to love all these years but know it never feels like enough. Take care.

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  6. So sorry for your sudden loss. Makes things so hard. I know how empty and numb you must be feeling after my Colin passing away in May last year.
    Just take a day at a time and keep busy - that's the only way to get through.
    Much love to you from Sue in Suffolk England

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  7. I am so sorry to hear of your husband's passing. I know you are numb right now, but please know that my (and many others') thoughts and prayers are with you, and that God holds you in His hands. Take care of yourself, and surround yourself with those you love.

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  8. Cheryl,

    Very sorry to hear of your husband's passing. My thoughts are with you during this time. Remember just one step at a time, take care.

    Amy

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  9. I read your blog but I don't comment very often on blogs. I could not let this go by without saying you have my deepest sympathy and you and your family will be in my prayers. I hope you can feel all the virtual hugs coming your way.

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  10. So sorry for your loss! May you know God's comfort at this difficult time.

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  11. Cheryl, I am sitting here in chills, this is so sad and awful. I am crying with you and wish I was there to help in some small way. I am so, so sorry. May the peace of the comforter promised by our heavenly Father be with you and always. Oh my dear friend how I wish I could change this. Love you

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  12. I am so sorry for your loss Cheryl. You will be in my prayers.

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  13. Oh Cheryl I am so sorry. I can only imagine how you are feeling and what you must be going through.
    There are no words.
    I will pray for you to find some comfort.

    Take care
    Debra

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  14. My deepest sympathy Cheryl. May the Lord remember you. I know the deep hurt you are feeling. I also lost my husband after 33.5 years.

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  15. My deepest sympathy for you Cheryl. I am so sorry for your loss.
    You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
    love from all the flowertots
    ftm

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  16. My heart breaks for you. You are in my prayers.

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  17. I am so sorry to hear of you losing your darling man Cheryl and so suddenly. I hope that you can take some comfort from the words of friends and strangers alike who follow your blog. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. Jennie x

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  18. Please accept my sympathies for your loss. Take whatever time you need, we will still be here.

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  19. What a shock for you! Deepest sympathy & prayers from me. Try not to overdo things - easier said than done.
    Lesley in Livingston. (Scotland).

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  20. Cheryl,
    I am so very sorry to hear of your husband's death. I pray that God will comfort and strengthen you as only He can do, and that He will give you the peace that passes all understanding. My sympathies to all your family.
    In Christ,
    Frances

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  21. Dear Cheryl:
    I have no words that will make any difference to your hurting heart, but please know that you are loved and are being prayed for by many, many people who consider you a friend. May God comfort you, guide you and give you strength for what lies ahead.

    Carol in NC

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  22. I'm sorry for your loss. I will be lifting you in prayer.

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  23. شركة تنظيف منازل بالخبر

    شركة تنظيف منازل بالخبر شركة المثالية هي افضل شركة تنظيف بالخبر يمكنكم التواصل معها للحصول علي افضل خدمات تنظيف المنازل والشقق والفلل والبيوت والمجالس والكنب والسجاد والموكيت والمفروشات بجودة عالية ومواصفات قياسية حيث تعد شركة تنظيف منازل بالخبر اولي الشركات التي التي تخصصت في مجالل التنظيف بالخبر ولديها خبرة كبيرة وعمالة ماهرة وادوات تنظيف حديثة وطاقم عمالة مدرب علي اعلي مستوى فلا تترددوا في الاتصال بشركة المثالية للتنظيف بالخبر وسوف تحصلون علي افضل الخدمات المنزلية من نظافة ومكافحة حشرات بارخص الاسعار

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  24. I'm so sorry for the loss of your beloved husband.

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  25. Cheryl, I'm so sorry for the loss of your beloved husband. Just know that all of your blogland family are praying for you and your family. He is safe in the lords embrace and will be with you always in your heart.

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  26. Cheryl, so very sorry for the loss of your beloved husband. Prayers for you and your family. Safe in God's embrace, always in your heart. Thank you for letting us know.
    Love
    Joy

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  27. My sincere sympathies on the passing of your husband. May you find some comfort in the memories you shared.

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  28. I am sorry to hear of the loss of your husband. I will be praying for you.

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  29. peace and comfort to you during this sad time- hold onto the memories and he will remain in your heart forever-

    barb

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  30. So sorry for the loss of your husband. I am thinking of you.

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  31. My deepest sympathy to you! I pray that God wrap His loving arms around you and strengthen you in the coming days. Sending a hug to you!

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  32. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  33. Cheryl - I have read your blogs for years but rarely commented. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. My prayers are with you! Shirley in Washington

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  34. Cheryl, I am so sorry. My heart is breaking for you. I am glad that you had discussed what he would want done in such a situation. I will be praying for you. Sending you lots of hugs. Marybeth

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  35. Cheryl, I read your blog all the time. I love your joy for life.
    God will hold you up,he is our strength. Know you are surrounded
    by people who care about you.

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  36. So very sad. With sympathy-a loyal reader.

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  37. Oh Cheryl, I'm so, so very sorry. Sending you all the love in the world. <3

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  38. So sorry Cheryl. Glen is in safe hands. Prayers for you in this most difficult time.

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  39. I rarely comment on blogs but could not leave without expressing my deepest sympathy for your loss. May you find comfort in Jesus at this difficult time.

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  40. Cheryl, I am so sorry. I can't even imagine how you must feel. When you didn't post, I imagined that you were spending time with family for the Easter holiday... not dealing with such a tragedy. Peace to you, my friend.

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  41. Cheryl, I am so sorry to learn of your husband's passing. 33 years of a long, happy marriage is a wonderful thing--and yet it is still not enough. You have my deepest sympathy. I'm so glad you have the comfort of knowing he is with God. You are in my prayers.

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  42. I'm so sorry for your great loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  43. I'm saddened to read of the sudden death of your husband and thankful you had discussed ahead of time his wishes. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.

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  44. Cheryl, I am sad for you and so sorry. Nancy

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  45. Oh my, many hugs going out to you. I am so sad for you.
    Kathi

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  46. Cheryl, I was saddened to hear of your loss!! Pray Gods comfort for you and your family. In time, you’ll be able to look back and remember all the wonderful memories that were made. In the meantime, take care of yourself and know many will be praying for you!

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  47. My heart is breaking for you. I am sheding tears so I can only imagine how hard this is for you. Sending love from the other side of the planet. Will be praying for you.

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  48. My heart is breaking for you Cheryl, please know that you are in my prayers, sending love hugs and sympathy and know that you loved by a lot of friends
    Love Lorraine

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  49. O Cheryl, I am so sorry. I lost my brother suddenly in 2015 and your right - your world does change in an instance and is never the same. I had a scared feeling that something was wrong with you.....I missed you blogging, but never imagined this. Again, I am so sorry and am praying for you and family. Hugs from Cindy Jane

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  50. In tears for you. We experienced something of your pain when dh found his dad already passed, one afternoon. It was so hard. Praying God's peace & comfort for you tonight. Hugs from Nebraska USA

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  51. Sending hugs and prayers to you and your family

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  52. Thought and prayers to you and your family

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  53. I am a faithful reader although I have not commented before. Please know that I am praying for God's comfort for you at this incredibly difficult time. God bless you.

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  54. Oh Cheryl, I am SO sorry. I can not imagine! I am praying for healing and peace, but take all the time you need. We are here for you! Xoxoxo Bobbi

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  55. Dear Cheryl, so very sorry to hear of the passing of your beloved husband Glen. My thoughts and prayers are with you. God bless from Liz K in Cranebrook Australia.

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  56. Dear Cheryl, I am so very sorry. Sending you hugs, love and prayers. God bless.

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  57. So sorry for your loss. May you find peace at this difficult time.

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  58. I am so very sorry for your loss Cheryl. Sending you some love and strength through this devastation xx

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  59. Cheryl,

    My heart is shattered for you. I am crying with you. I have always loved hearing your stories of you and your DH. I knew he was very special. I am so, so, sorry. I am worried about you. Know you are loved and thought of. You are not alone.

    Please let me know if there is anything I can do. I am here for you at any time day or night.

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  60. Oh dear Cheryl!!! I am so very sorry! Your blog friends love you so much and I will be praying for you and your family. 💗

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  61. May God comfort you at this difficult time. My love and many hugs to you. My heart is aching with you.

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  62. I am so sorry for your loss. How sudden and shocking. My husband and I have discussed these matters--what our wishes are, and they are in writing and with our Wills. My heart goes out to you. I am praying for God to wrap His loving arms around you and comfort you with good people who will stand alongside you during this stressful, sad, and confusing time.

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  63. Cheryl, I am so very sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you. I will be praying for you and keeping you in good thoughts as you enter into this new stage of life. May the Lord comfort and bless you and wrap his arms around you.

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  64. Dear Cheryl, my heart is so full for what you are experiencing. I pray that you will feel the presence of Jesus every moment of every day to come. It may feel as though you are alone but remember you are loved by many and we are just a thought away.

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  65. I am so sorry for your loss. You will be in my prayers.

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  66. Cheryl...sending hugs and prayers...during these most difficult days in your life. Life can change in a split second...Jane

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  67. Wow! How unbelievable this can happen so suddenly! You are in my heart and prayers! May God comfort you during this difficult time.

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  68. I am just so sad for you. I will keep you in my thoughts. I am always encouraged by your blog. Keep your fur babies close and take care of yourself and your health. Hugs.
    Barb in PA

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  69. Cheryl, I've been thinking about you all day since I read the news and I'm praying for you. I just wanted you to know.

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  70. So sorry to hear this, I reiterate all the above comments. XXXXX

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  71. Dear Cheryl, This is just such a shock. I am so terribly sorry. I have thought about you so much and am praying. Cheryl I think you are a very sensible, practical and resourceful person. I know for sure you have many missions and a ministry too which I hope will keep you going. Right now you must be in such shock. With much love Annabel.xxx

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  72. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. My prayers are with you.

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  73. Oh Cheryl, I'm so very sorry for your loss.

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  74. So very, very sorry. Thinking of you.

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  75. I am so very sorry Cheryl for the loss of your sweet Glen. My heart aches for you my friend. I wish I lived close to you so I could help you through all this. Please know that my love and prayers are with you. (((((((((HUGS)))))

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  76. I'm so so sorry for you loss of your loving husband Cheryl. So very sad. What a helpmate he was to you. You will be in my prayers. I do wish I could be there as we all do.

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  77. I read your blog all the time and am so shocked and saddened by this! My heart aches for you. You are in my prayers. Sue

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  78. My very sincere sympathy. My heart hurts for you.

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  79. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss!

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  80. I'm a just so heartbroken for you. I cannot imagine how lost you must be without your love. To lose him so fast...just so heartbreaking. Please take care of yourself and thank you for reminding us to take care of our loved ones while we can. My heart will be with you in the days to come, and I will be praying the Lord will carry you through this time of loss.

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  81. Bless you sweet Cheryl. I hurt for you and words fail to say what my heart feels. Altho, I do not know you personally, I feel as though I am speaking to a friend because of your posts which are always filled with encouragement and sunshine. Take your time, forget the blog for a while if that helps and spend your time in healing. I pray for peace and know the hurt will be so powerful but resolution will eventually enter your existence. With love and sorrow.

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  82. Cheryl
    I am so sad to hear your devastating news. I pray you would know Gods comfort at this time.
    Kim

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  83. I just started reading your blog So sorry to hear of your loss. Prayers for you and your family. Beth

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