No Wrap Up Today - Just Sad

I won't be doing the weekly wrap up today, I am just not in the mood.
Yesterday was such a sad day.  My sweet beautiful baby (8 yrs) Lilly crossed the rainbow bridge.

She had been being very picky the past couple weeks about her food.  Nothing, including tuna, was satisfying.  She was not eating much, wet or dry.
I went this week and bought every type of treat I could find and several different kinds of wet food, to no avail.
She continued being her sweet self - playing with Coogy and her toys, jumping up on couch and bed, wanting combed, talking and talking - just normal, except not eating much.
Finally Saturday morning when I got up, she didn't jump up and run in to me.  I petted her and talked to her and then she finally got up.  She hadn't ate for almost 2 days.
I called the Vet and of course they weren't open.  I took her to the emergency vet service.

They ran every test they could - not good.  I had no idea she had so many medical issues.  She never displayed them.  Hugely enlarged liver, partially collapsed lung, asthma, pneumonia, fluid around the lungs, super low white cell count, and heart failure.
She just didn't want to eat - otherwise she acted normal every day.  I was so shocked.

They said they could poke, prod, tube, and perhaps surgery - but probably could do nothing to help, due to liver and heart problems.  NO!  I could not do that to her.  Poor baby.
I told them no and she passed right then in my arms.
I sat and cuddled her for about 2 hours in the vets office while waiting on results.  In 8 years she had NEVER EVER let us cuddle her like that, so I knew she was ill at that point.  I got to talk to her, hold her, and love her one on one - it was special.
They let me sit with her as long as I needed.  They were very kind people - all so sweet.

Coogy keeps walking around looking for her.  Every noise he hears - he looks up and around.  He sure snuggled a lot with me last night.  This morning he woke me with tons of kisses, soft pats on the face and hugs (more than usual).

Lilly mourned Glen for so long and so hard, I have to think she is with him now in heaven.  Yes, I do believe animals go to heaven - God made us all.
I will sure miss her.  Her short little legs, her tiny head and big chubby body and curly belly.  Her talking to me all the time - I swear we had conversations.  She used intonations that sounded like she was truly answering me.  Her begging to get combed.  Her racing me into the kitchen every morning for breakfast.  Her loving to get under my bed covers.  Watching her lay in the sunshine in the front door and her watching and chattering to birds and squirrels.  She would get so excited.
She loved everyone and wanted to know them and love on them.

I will miss you my little short stuff.  You were such a good baby girl.  I love you so much.
My tears are flowing - so I will close for now.


Tomorrow I will do wrap up.
Blessings to each of you.  Love your family and your babies.